Hapiness and excellence

Lately, I thought a lot about excellence. A few months ago, I was sure that "striving for excellence" is one of my personal values. Now, I have second thoughts. I saw what it means trying to reach excellence. And I saw it means failing to reach it.

Unconsciously, I made a choice a few months ago. I chose that I won't strive for excellence if this doesn't make me happy... And now, reaching excellence in one domain or another won't make me happy. I have to admit that if I want to be really, really, really good at something I have to work a lot, I have to focus only on that thing, I have to have a high level of motivation (and pretty much constant), I have to be enthusiastic, I have to have time. And striving for excellence means devoting myself, my energy, putting my heart in only one thing.

Sometimes, doing only one thing makes me happy. But not now. Now I need my friends, school, AIESEC, my family and IC in order to be happy. And I want them constantly in my life. So, I can't devote myself fully to only one aspect. And this is why I chose not to strive for excellence. I chose to enjoy the simple life, without continuous challenges, without underfucking everything, without making conscious efforts to grow up or to learn from every experience I have.

I feel more self aware... And I'm not afraid to admit who I am... I'm a person that just realised that she needs to learn more practical stuff, to actually gain knowledge on her domains of interest and stop pretending that she has developed abilities that she doesn't actually has at an acceptable standard for real world.

This is me... happy and a bit mediocre. This is me... and I accept myself as I am.

I just love the image :)

Your Emoticon Is Smiling

Right now, you're feeling cheerful and content - without a care in the world.

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O zi minunata

Gata! Am pus stampila pe ziua de azi: MINUNATA!

Un buchet de lacramioare, o sedinta eficienta, 2 seminarii reusite, o masa copioasa, un eseu inceput, un gand spontan pe care vreau sa il pun in practica, un ceai verde (dulce minune interzisa...) cu miere intr-un loc acum singur.

M-am trezit zambind. Si asa mi-am continuat ziua. De ce oare? Nu stiu sigur (sau nu vreau sa recunosc :P). Pur si simplu stiu ca totul se va termina cu bine, ca tot ce am inceput se va finaliza asa cum vreau eu (si sexy, asa cum vrea coach-ul meu).

M-am trezit zambind. Si de aici mi-a venit motivarea pentru ziua de azi. Din zambetul un pic adormit, dar sincer al unui copil (asa cum vreau eu sa ma cred), un pic pierdut pe planeta asta. Se zice ca o floare nu aduce primavara, dar un zambet... cate nu face un zambet!

M-am trezit zambind. Si asta mi-a dat o pofta nebuna de viata!

Trebuie sa dau mai departe zambetul asta... E prea frumos ca sa il tin numai pentru mine :)

As fi vrut sa scriu ceva mai inteligent, dar starea mea de acum nu e una inteligenta... e una lenes de boema... Ma intorc la dulcea minune interzisa si eseul inceput...

more stupid things :P

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is medium. You probably have had a couple significant loves. And you may have even had your heart broken. But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people. Dominance: Your dominance is medium. You tend to be the one with more power. You aren't a total control freak in relationships.. But of course you don't mind getting you way! Cynicism: Your cynicism is medium. You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love... But you've definitely been burned enough to know better. You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist. Independence: Your independence is high. You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love. Having your own life is very important for you... Even more important than having a relationship.

The Five Variable Love Test

hihihi

You Are 26% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well. In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

How Evil Are You?

wasting time

What Your Handwriting Says About You

You are a fairly energetic person. You know how do pace yourself, and you deal well with stress. You range from very outgoing to very shy. You are a shapeshifter who is very versatile. You adapt well, and you look at things from many angles. You are balanced and grounded. You know how to get along well with others. You need a bit of space in your life, but you're not a recluse. You expect people to give you a small amount of privacy, and you respect their privacy as well. You are conservative, old fashioned, and a little stubborn. You are resistant to change. You are a decent communicator. You eventually get your point across, but sometimes you leave things a bit ambiguous.

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