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luni, 26 aprilie 2010

Spring time :)

This is a really short post, to remind me later on that my life is nice and shiny :)
I love this spring! The people around me are amazing, the ones I love are close to me, I am doing interesting new things and having so meaningful conversations! And there are soooo many things to do in Cluj!!!
I love this spring! It's the best one in years!

miercuri, 21 aprilie 2010

Cu sufletul intr-un loc frumos

"Datorita unui sistem politic in care absolventii de facultate erau repartizati conform mediei, preferintelor si starii civile mai ales in orase mici – mai aproape sau mai departe de familie -, parintii mei au ajuns pe la mijlocul anilor 80 in Calarasi – o urbe pe malul Borcei, la o aruncatura de bat de Dobrogea si Bulgaria. Datorita aceluiasi sistem politic in care proaspetele mamici aveau dreptul numai la trei luni de concediu postnatal, am ajuns sa imi petrec mare parte a copilariei in Cerna – o comuna pierduta prin Muntii Macinului in care am trait poate cele mai frumoase clipe de pana acum, in care am facut descoperiri fundamentale despre mersul naturii si firea oamenilor... Dar nu va temeti! Nu o sa va port intr-o calatorie autobiografica! Am vrut doar sa intelegeti de ce va voi introduce Dobrogea – un tinut al campiilor insorite, al dealurilor cernute de vant, al muntilor tociti de curgerea vremii, al oraselor care se inalta pe ruinele unor cetati ale caror inceputuri se pierd in negura timpului..

Probabil ma veti acuza de o puternica legatura sentimentala cu acest tinut si din aceasta cauza, de partinire. Aveti dreptate in privinta legaturii emotionale, dar nu a si partinirii. Permiteti-mi sa va port in urmatoarele minute intr-o scurta calatorie imaginara in cele mai frumoase si semnficative locuri ale Dobrogei. Dupa ce ma veti fi ascultat si mai ales dupa ce o veti fi vizitat, vom relua discutia despre partinire.

Sa incepem cu Manastirea Dervent – complex monahal care sfideaza cu indrazneala pustietatea din jur. Nu e doar o cetate obisnuita, e o fortareata a crestinismului pe care Sfantul Apostol Andrei l-a sadit pe meleaguri romanesti inca din primele veacuri. Manastirea e o cetate in care atunci cand vom intra vom abandona macar pentru cateva clipe scepticismul, cinismul sau lipsa de credinta ce ne incearca mai mult sau mai putin pe fiecare din noi. Intram intr-un un loc sacru in care Icoana Maicii Domnului facatoare de minuni, Sfintele Cruci si Izvorul Tamaduirii ne aduc atat de aproape de starea de liniste sufleteasca si implinire dupa care la un moment dat cu toti tanjim.

Incarcati de aceasta stare pasnica, ne putem continua calatoria prin Dobrogea spre un loc incarcat de istorie – “Biserica Omului” sau Adamclisi – dupa denumirea turca de care am auzit cu totii. Ce vom gasi acolo? Un oarecare turist ar spune ruine in pustietate. Dar un adevarat calator il va asculta pe domnul Ene – fostul cadru militar care, din pasiune pentru tinutul Dobrogei a devenit de ani buni ghidul monumentului. Si ascultand povestea lui, vom recompune in imaginatia noastra viata in cetatea getica cucerita cu greu de romani sau construirea monumentui Tropaeum Traiani.

Intelegand tainele de la Adamclisi, nu putem decat sa ne continuam calatoria in Dobrogea. Si desi stiu ca ati fi tentati sa ne indreptam spre litoral, as vrea sa va indemn spre nordul tinutului, in Muntii Macinului, sa descoperim parcul national unde se intersecteaza flora si fauna specifice zonelor balcanice, mediteraneene si caucaziene, unde inca se mai pastreaza traditiile si limba aromana, unde peisajul iti ia rasuflarea. In acest punct al calatoriei noastre, destinatia e mai putin importanta – rasplata adevarata este drumul in sine prin paduri, dealuri,stane si asezari intinse. Daca parasim soseaua asfaltata si ne incumetam la o drumetie printre lanurile de grane si randurile de vita de vie ajungem in varful muntilor tociti, un loc aproape pustiu in care ne putem reculege, putem reflecta sau visa la urmatoarea destinatie.

Evident, calatoria nu se opreste aici. Mai sunt atat de multe de descoperit! Dar toate celelalte minuni o sa va las sa le experimentati atunci cand veti vizita frumosul tinut al Dobrogei. Trebuie doar sa va deschideti simturile si sa va bucurati de fiecare minut pentru ca oamenii, peisajele, istoria si freamatul vietii va vor purta intr-o calatorie pe care nu o veti niciodata. "
Recitindu-mi acest discurs, mi s-a facut dor de duca, dor de drumul intortocheat si padurea verde, dor de Cerna, dor de stat pe prispa, dor de paine pe vatra, dor de citit la amiaza si de insirat tutun in dimineti ploioase...

luni, 19 aprilie 2010

Falling in love

I'm falling in love. The stupid smile, the shivers, the optimism... I'm falling in love with the city. In my eyes, Cluj is now more beautiful than ever. It seems that everything is here: the lifestyle I want, the persons that make me laugh, the persons with whom I can have an enjoyable and stimulating conversations, the lake near my dorm, the tea places, the books, the nature.

I want to live here at least until July 2011. I want to make my living here worth. I'm not the same person I was in the past 3 years. I grew up (though for some this may seem hard to believe ) and now I believe that all my roles represent me, not only the ones that take the most of time/energy. One of my roles, "Project Silvia" role is the one that's pushing me towards discovering the city and the rest of my personality simply falls in love with what I discover.

I am satisfied with my life now! What an amazing feeling!

luni, 12 aprilie 2010

People and shoe collections

You spend so much time and money on shoes, but on a daily basis you can only wear a few pairs of shoes according to the environment and your activities. If you're a lucky one, you have an innate sense of what and when to wear; but if you're not (and most of us are not), you'll have to educate your taste. This takes time and while learning most probably you'll destroy your image a few times.
Sometimes you have a crush on some pairs of shoes and you like them so much that you only wear those shoes. Sometimes your feet hurt so badly, that you can only put on some pairs of shoes, no matter if they fit the rest of your world or not. Sometimes you know that some pairs fit you amazingly even if the others tell you they look really badly. Sometimes you buy some shoes that you'll never wear, but only try them from time to time when you're alone. Sometimes you wear some pairs so much that eventually you cann't wear them anylonger, so you throw away some of them or you just keep them as good old memories. Sometimes you take care of your shoes, but sometimes you just don't feel like cleaning them straight away (but when you do it eventually, you always wish you'd done it sooner). Sometimes you forget about some pairs that are well hidden in your closet and when you finally find them back, you have to figure out if they still fit you or not. Sometimes you miss wearing some pairs and you just can't put them on when you wish or as you wish because they're not close enough. Sometimes you buy tones of pairs at once and sometimes you just can't find something you like. Sometimes you reinvent some pairs of shoes. Sometimes you don't even pay attention to what you're wearing and sometimes you spend hours choosing the right ones. Sometimes you invite other people to see your shoe collection, but the visit takes too long and most of them simply go back home (but some precious few stay and you should cherish those). Sometimes you spend your time doing an inventory so that you know them better, remember and rearrange them.
But never, ever you can wear all your shoes one day. And never, ever anyone will know all your shoes the way you know them.
Every person is just like a shoe collection.

sâmbătă, 10 aprilie 2010

Home again

Tomorrow I'm going back to Cluj. I stayed home ten days. And I was happy most of the time (anyhow, way happier than the last few times when I came home to heal my wounds). Why? For a few simple reasons:

  • I realised that I know some pretty amazing persons (I'm soooo proud of one my highschool friends)
  • I read one book in one day (I enjoy reading so intensely because it's one of the very few activities when something else than me or my memories is the center of my thoughts)
  • I visited Cerna - my small piece of heaven
  • The trees were blooming
  • Shopping with mom
  • Eating quince jam, cheese with radishes and greeen onions
  • I stayed away from some persons
  • Nice conversation with mamaia
  • A new idea about my future just hit me (it's only an idea, not a plan; by 1st July I'll see if it's a plan or it was just an idea). And my mom totally supports me on this one (actually if I do it, I'll turn one of her dreams into reality) :) :) :)

Home again! Home it's far from being perfect (actually it's far from being protected from bad things), but it's the center of my comfort zone, the place that gives me energy and that I cherish a lot more since I came back from Lithuania. Home again!

Smiley me!

marți, 6 aprilie 2010

Small piece of heaven








This Easter was simply perfect! Cerna and all the family, all the nieces and nephews, the aunts, the air, the food, the goats, the scenery! I missed it so much and I am so happy we went there. By far, it was the best thing that could have happened to me, to mom, to dad!
I am unbelievably grateful to have the family I have and to be the aunt of 12 simply amazing kids (even if one of them is only 1 year younger than me)!