Mainly, this is why I haven't written on my blog lately. Because I had the best time of my life with a bunch of people that now are part of my heart and memories.
Tomorrow is the last day of CC pre-stay. I´m nervous. I can´t believe that IC is actually starting... I have tones of butterflies in my stomach.
Today we had the day off... sleep in, chating with people from Romania, replying some mails
from delegates, a walk in the city.I have to confess that I don´t like this small city. It´s so poor, there are many old cars that pollute a lot, people that seem old and bad chocolate. Still, I like the fact that I saw this also. I didn´t want to keep in mind only the sunny beaches, the wonderful view, the nice metro and the really, really nice people.
I had a lot of time to think about myself, about what I want to do, who I am, who I should be, what I like and what I don´t like, about my comfort zone. You´ll see the follow up of these thoughts when I´ll come back.
Can´t wait for the next 2 weeks... full of green, challenges and passion.
At some point I realised why Tudor chose this number for the game. Now I forgot. But just seeing the name on his blog, I felt the need to redifine myself again. So, here we go... The 21 words that define me now
I suppose they are so diferent from what I wrote about 1 year ago. I will read that also, but not now... Now, this is me... from Brazil, in a thinking and melancholic mood (very sleepy also).
Tonight, I didn't feel that good so I was trying to order my thoughts in the swings that are here. At some point, Ruth (the CCP) came and we started to talk... It was one of the most inspirational talks I had lately and it reminded me of another talk I had in February with someone else.
You know why I was selected in the CC team? Because I had a good application, because I was from Romania (Ruth said she supported me from the very begining because she was sure that a Romanian AIESECer will do a great job) and because I would bring diverity to the team (my AIESEC XP is a little bit different of that of the other CC memebers - former MC, EB, trainees, etc.). Knowing this makes me feel a lot more aware of my role here, makes me feel motivated not only by my enthusiasm...
Talking to her I understood the power of believing in what you are doing, the power of perseverence, and the power of dreaming. I loved talking to her, sharing our plans for the future... You know what amazed me the most? The fact that she admitted she lived in a bubble for the last years, but now she is looking forward to start her new career outside AIESEC, here in Brazil, thousands of kilometers away from Australia.
Ruth is a really special person. And I felt this from the very first speech she held us. I'm so happy I get to work with her :)
I woke up really early. At first, I didn't understand why it was so dark nor why everbody around me was still sleeping. After 2 hours of thinking and being really quiet, my day started. Semi-hot shower, delicious breakfast, a walk in the city.
The city is really small and very crowded. A lot of cars, especially old Beetles, horrible traffic, nice people, a little bit of shopping. And then, the church with the really nice view. I feel like I'm living the Marquez's novels. It's a painful sun, the poverty, the streets... However, the hill from the hotel property reminds me of home (actually, of Rachitele, TRIX, Rox, Lupo, Vladutz).
A light lunch and a lovely dessert (water mellon, pie, peaches) followed by a bath in the swimming pool. Even though the water was really cold, I had fun with Sandra and Anthony. I's a wonderful feeling to be free to do whatever you want. I think that today was my first day of holliday (and the last one because tommorow we start the agenda). I read a little, funny book (Actually, this book is a present for someone, but I couldn't help not reading it) and took a sun bath.
Tonight, we'll go to rodeo. I can't wait!
Oh, I'm in a small city near Sao Paolo (I can't remember the name right now, but we call it Ita)... and it's winter in Brazil :)
P.S: Thanx Dora, Gabelu for the feedback you gave me on the application form!
Toata lumea pleaca. E o forfota de nedescris in camin. Peste tot frigidere, masini burdusite cu tot felul de obiecte, oameni care se imbratiseaza grabit si isi ureaza vacanta placuta. Pana si camera noastra incepe sa fie goala... Roxi a plecat acasa, Anabelle e la Rares, dulapul Soniei a plecat.
Simt ca ar trebuie sa fiu mai fericita, dar e ceva ce ma determina sa imi pastrez in privire tristetea. E poate faptul ca prietenii mei cei mai buni nu o sa mai fie in fiecare zi la anul, unii nu o sa mai fie deloc in tara, iar alti oameni... alti oameni o sa fie doar prieteni din pacate.
Ma pregatesc pentru cea mai exotica, plina de nou si de entuziasm vara a vietii mele. Si tocmai de aceea se pare ca in mod involuntar fac bilantul pentru anul care a trecut. Ce s-a intamplat din octombrie si pana in iunie... muuuuuuulte, foaaaaaaaarte multe. Cred totusi ca in total o sa ies pe plus, ca lucrurile faine de anul asta le-au surclasat pe cele mai putin placute. Pentru ca pana la urma totul a fost bine.
Ma gandesc la cum a evoluat atmosfera in camera noastra (de la 3 best friends la tensiune apasatoare pe care am mascat-o cu deosebita eleganta din nou la 3 best friends), ce mi s-a intamplat in AIESEC (MCC, LCC2, SprinCO, Global Village), la prietenii pe care mi i-am facut, la oamenii care au intrat si au iesit din viata mea... Nu stiu de ce, am impresia ca azi e 31 decembrie... e o zi a bilantului, a dorintelor. Si poate pentru ca am senzatia ca e 31 decembrie simteam nevoia unui "proper good bye" cum mi-a zis azi cineva. Unul pe care mai mult sau mai putin voit nu o sa il am.
Ma simt ciudat... pentru ca stiu ca la anul, cand ma voi intoarce, nu va mai fi nimic din ce a fost in ultimii 2 ani. O sa fie ceva cu totul si cu totul nou. O sa fiu eu care am trait o vara minunata intr-o echipa internationala, o sa fiu in ultimul an gandindu-ma la licenta, o sa ma pregatesc de X, Anabelle o sa fie in Franta (sper din suflet), Roxi nu o sa mai fie aici zilnic, posterul de pe perete cu SprinCO va trebui inlocuit cu altceva, AIESEC o sa mai fie atat de putin, o sa fie clar primul meu job. De fapt, cred ca de asta mi-e un pic teama. Ca la anul imi voi schimba rutina si nu stiu inca cu ce...
